quiet

things are quiet. i think that i need to listen more and listen better. pray for me.
i was reminded the other day of the parable of the sower...and i think i have let the weeds crowd my life. I agree with my roommate's statement "i am a seed that desires good soil". To be in the world, but not of it. There are so many sinful things that i desire before i desire God and the things of his heart. When i think about what i actually want, it is clear that i desire the things of God. I have traded them for the things of man...fleshly things. Why can't i see and believe that the Lord wants only what is best for me. He is a good God , and whenever i have put my full trust in Him has never let me down. I need faith. Pray for me.

the cry of the Dalit.

I am thinking and praying for you today.

Emancipate.

Dalit Hymn

Sing from the village, sing from the town
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Sing everyone who has been cast down
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Emancipate, emancipate, Prime Minister, emancipate
Emancipate, emancipate, Prime Minister, emancipate

Sweeping, weaving, tilling the Earth
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Show me the man to deny our worth
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Free the Dalit, free the Dalit, Prime Minister, free the Dalit
Free the Dalit, free the Dalit, Prime Minister, free the Dalit

Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Skin of the buffalo declared unclean
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Heed Ambedkar, heed Ambedkar, Prime Minister, heed Ambedkar
Heed Ambedkar, heed Ambedkar, Prime Minister, heed Ambedkar

God made every man forward and free
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Rich man, poor man, every man free
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Politically, socially, everybody free
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Rich man, poor man, everybody free
(Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey)
Caste is a lie, caste is a lie, Prime Minister, caste is a lie
Caste is a lie, caste is a lie, Prime Minister, caste is a lie

Emancipate, emancipate, Prime Minister, emancipate
Free the Dalit, free the Dalit, Prime Minister, free the Dalit
Heed Ambedkar, heed Ambedkar, Prime Minister, heed Ambedkar
Caste is a lie, caste is a lie, Prime Minister, caste is a lie

Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey
Sub kooch ho sak-ee dey

Kingdom come

I'm sorry for my writing. Most of you know it's not my strong suit, but i thought i'd get this off my chest and send it off into the abyss... to you, and to my Father.

I need help figuring all this out. What does it mean when we ask for the Kingdom to come? I know that in praying that prayer we are asking that God do something big... and I assume it's through His people. I want to be a part of it, and i believe i am. So here is the big question... what part?
Some people i know have had their purpose written on their heart, almost since day one of being re-born. When i say this i don't mean like a generic "love God and serve Him" purpose (which is at the heart of it all), but i mean a real specific purpose for their life. I sometimes sit in class and ponder this.
I felt a tug toward social work for a few reasons; 1. Good friends told me it would be a good place for me. 2. I love people 3. I am a child of God, and I believe God loves people more than I love people...and I could be a vessel for that love. I believe number three the most! But to be completely candid, i am starting to wonder if what i am doing is what God has designed me for.

In class, they tell us that we will have to seperate our personal beliefs from our professional ones... and i can't. I try and imagine the scenarios, and again and again, I cannot swallow the idea that when people who are beat up, cast down, and desperate for answers come to me...I am supposed to turn them to programs, or self help groups. If i did this i would be lying, cheating and denying them the real hope. Hope in Christ.
What can i do...? leave it up to everyone else? Give up? Lie?
I have always felt that God wants His people permeating the world, every inch of it... and giving Him all the glory.I feel like Christians should be doing whatever it is that they are doing with all their might. Whether they sweep streets or they change laws or they counsel those in need. I believe that through this.. God..will change the world and His kingdom will come.
But i'm still left with How?

So there I sat praying. I had no words.
Everything that I thought to say sounded cheesy.
Guilt overwhelmed her, and all i could do was hold her. I prayed for Him to comfort her, but sometimes He calls us to answer our own prayers.
I have never experienced what she did, how could I attempt to understand her? So I prayed.
God fully understands.
How can you convince someone that they are forgiven,clean, and beautiful in God's sight. The shame she felt was overwhelming. Her eyes for a brief second looked into mine, until she looked away and let out tears once again. There seems no end to them. Losing hope. How easily we forget God's grace.
"i never thought i would need it"
So I prayed.

Sanctification

so here i sit in between.
well actually,i should hope im not sitting, because this is active.

between 2 awesomes. Justification and Glorification.
after being saved by faith and before His kingdom fully comes.
that's where i am. Working it out. Paul says to work out our salvation with fear and trembling.
it's work indeed...to be like Christ. but it is beautiful.
those few shining moments when the people of God work it out...miracles happen.
today i pray for miracles.