Today God has taught me yet again how important it is to trust in Him. I tend to forget how much God cares about every insignificant part of my life. Here's the story... so i have been looking for a job for the last month and a bit with absolutely no luck . Even though many of the places i have been to have large signs, sometimes in fluorescent colours, advertising "we're hiring" i have had no calls for interviews. Today i was at the end of my rope and on the way when I was going to hand out resumes i prayed "God, if it's your will that i get a job can you please provide me one"... sure enough about 10 minutes later i had a job and then an hour after that i got a call for an interview. God is amazing... i am not...it's as simple as that. I wonder why i hadn't asked him earlier and why i thought God didn't care about a temporary job. Anyways ...God is faithful and as it says in James "you do not have because you do not ask".

Well on another note i am a terrible driver so far. My german instructor is nto impressed. I pray tomorrow goes better than my previous days.

Well here i am. Bored. What does God want me to do this year? That is the most poignant question in my life right now. I want to keep an eternal perspective and do whatever is best for the Kingdom.
so, here is my prayer for guidance...
Lord, Guide and direct this year. You are sovereign and you know what is best. I trust you with my life.



Anyways...i miss Briercrest fellowship.

you know how people always talk about how radical and revolutionary Jesus was? Well i am starting to understand this much more. i've been reading an awesome book called "the end of religion" and the author is so simple yet the way he highlights things that I had been leaving in the shadows is incredible. Honestly im learning so much more about Jesus
i recommen it to everyone christian and non christian alike
check it out: www.theendofreligion.org

First night of youth group tonight... im a leader now... whoa!
two things i was reminded of.
First, boys and girls in high school are totally hormone full and therefore they all seem to be attracted to eachother. It can be pretty entertaining as an outsider watching.
Second, on a more serious note...i was reminded of how awesome youth group is. It is an amazing way for kids to come and just observe...or ask questions. There were some kids there who had never been to church before in their lives and they want to come back! I'm so pumped...no im enthused. God is good all the time!

Just got back from a few incroyable days with some great friends. Im trying to figure out if i really like Toronto or if i just like the people i see while iam there. I think it's both and that's why i want to move there...ahhh but then reality sets in and i realize ...i am broke.
anyways i had sweet times with Lyds on her "bertday" and met some fantabulous people. The last night i was there we were discussing together how amazing it is when Christians get together and they just connect right away. God's Spirit is amazing... because let's be honest who likes a whole lot of small talk?
okay something crazy last night, so i was taking a cab home from the greyhound station and got talking to the ab driver. He said that he graduated near the top of his class in bio-chemistry...so obviously i ask him why he's driving a cab instead of off in some lab or hospital. He said he just does not care that much. hmmm... i guess i started to think...it doesn't matter what you do or what you degree you have (something i thought about a lot while hanging out at university campuses these past few days)i think that whatever you do do it for the Lord and make sure you are passionate about it because it is God who will give you those desires if we are delighting in him. He is so good.

anyways maybe i'll post again soon...maybe i won't.

God asks people to do some pretty crazy things...would I be willing to eat food cooked on excrement and lie on my side with the sins of Israel upon me?...Well I might if the Spirit of God practically forced me. To tell you the truth i want and yearn to live radically for God. I want to live in a way that people question why I am the way I am. But i don't want it to simply be a set of rules i follow that would make me a Jew.., but im a Christian and the Spirit lives in me. So why is it that people don't notice the difference...maybe my sin blurs it? Grace... give me Grace.

My dad attempted to dissuade me from India today. There are needs here...why would I want to go to a country where women are not treated right... I need something more than just a "bleeding heart"... they need more than compassion...I can't change the everything so wht's the point...Canada needs people.
I really wish i could diferentiate the truth from lies.I pray God give me discernment.
What does Canada really need...we have a church in every town...pastors...missionaries...radio stations.... Bible in many translations....christian counselling... Christian books...Christian Music... TV evangelists... para Church organizations... conferences... blah blah blah... and it continues. We also have plenty of aid for people who are in need of money...food ...shelter...rehabilitation. Don't get me wrong Canada still needs the kingdom to come but much of the reason it isn't spreading more is because of hardened hearts... which still need to hear... but if they do not listen are we still accountable to them? In Ezekiel it says if someone is sinning and we don't warn themthey will die and we will be accountable for their blood. hmmm... will I be accountable to those overseas who have not heard if i do not make an effort to warn them. I don't know...

Grace... I NEED GRACE.

I have come to the realisation today that i have become the person who Kata Holdren said I would become.
A few years back i was at my friends place... u know ... chillin out. Her mother liked me ( mothers usually do ;) ) until I opened my big mouth and discouraged her daughter from doing homework saying that she should party instead. I was obviously partially kidding but as a result of that conversation Kata has exed me off her "acceptable friend for her daughter" list. One day she told Karen that "If Sara married Dan ( a good friend of mine) It would never work...all they would do for the rest of their lives is fight over who will flip the burgers that week". HAHAHA..... WELL KATA.... look who is nto in school ...not sure whats happening next year and has an interview at Burger King!....Oh how funny!

p.s. I would NEVER marry Dan. :)

wow, so im home at last. I had been looking forward to this for a while. I felt God giving me a great peace about this year being my last at Briercrest. Now, im sad. But God is good and i trust Him completely with my future. I don't know what it's going to look like but that makes me draw nearer to Him.
Last night my roommate and I sat up and talked about our favourite memories....cleaned our rooms military style...and wrote in eachother's yearbooks. She is an amazing woman and I pray that God uses her in a mighty way...with Him she is able! but It wasn't until i read her yearbook comment that it finally hit ..."and so ends this chapter of our lives"she writes... it is so true! I'm leaving a place that had been so key to fostering my spiritual growth and now i am here in a place where it is going to be well... really hard. Consider it pure joy when facing trials of many kinds. I prayed for suffering... and it's amazing how God answers that.
hmmm... but my roommate did not leave the entry like that, her next comment was to enter the next chapter with a desire for God and enthusiasm to serve Him. So i will take that advice...the advice from a dear friend.
And so begins the next chapter....

I'm going to miss my time here at Briercrest. God has given me peace about leaving but there is certain things that i am really going to miss.

Top 10 things:

1. Classes with Carl Hinderager, took all 4 classes he teaches (pauline epistles, Gospels, Spiritual formation, and General Epistles) that man knows the word and teaches it with passion.
2. my roomate, her name is Karen but for the past 2 years ive called her nothing but "roomate". She is the perfect roomate....laid back... sarcastic...and a woman of real integrity.
3. The girls on my hall, im going to miss being able to hang out and spur one another on! Late night talks when we should being doing papers, sharing our passions and praying together etc.
4. class in general, seriously i have learned to dig into the word and apply it to my life from some of the most brilliant and godly men and women.
5. being in leadership, seriously as hard as it has been it has also been a blessing to be able to be an RA this year and to be able to watch God move in people and change things we had been praying for.
6. My mentor, Kathy Runnalls a wise woman indeed. I appreciate her oppenness to talk about ANYTHING. "God is good, indeed He is Faithful" - Kathy quote
7. The Library, honestly i know that's weird but any book that i woiuld ever want to read is here!
8. The missionaries, there are tons of inredible people here who love ht e Lord and have served and are continuing to serve Him overseas.. and seriously it is so cool to get to knw them.
9. The sky, seriously you don't see sky like this through the smog in Windsor


10. chapel, meeting together every morning for a time of praise and the Word... so good ... so good!

Oh bridal quest... how i will miss thee.

Well i thought since I have been stalking for a while I should really join the band wagon of bloggers. Isn't this a new experience.