God asks people to do some pretty crazy things...would I be willing to eat food cooked on excrement and lie on my side with the sins of Israel upon me?...Well I might if the Spirit of God practically forced me. To tell you the truth i want and yearn to live radically for God. I want to live in a way that people question why I am the way I am. But i don't want it to simply be a set of rules i follow that would make me a Jew.., but im a Christian and the Spirit lives in me. So why is it that people don't notice the difference...maybe my sin blurs it? Grace... give me Grace.

My dad attempted to dissuade me from India today. There are needs here...why would I want to go to a country where women are not treated right... I need something more than just a "bleeding heart"... they need more than compassion...I can't change the everything so wht's the point...Canada needs people.
I really wish i could diferentiate the truth from lies.I pray God give me discernment.
What does Canada really need...we have a church in every town...pastors...missionaries...radio stations.... Bible in many translations....christian counselling... Christian books...Christian Music... TV evangelists... para Church organizations... conferences... blah blah blah... and it continues. We also have plenty of aid for people who are in need of money...food ...shelter...rehabilitation. Don't get me wrong Canada still needs the kingdom to come but much of the reason it isn't spreading more is because of hardened hearts... which still need to hear... but if they do not listen are we still accountable to them? In Ezekiel it says if someone is sinning and we don't warn themthey will die and we will be accountable for their blood. hmmm... will I be accountable to those overseas who have not heard if i do not make an effort to warn them. I don't know...

Grace... I NEED GRACE.

I have come to the realisation today that i have become the person who Kata Holdren said I would become.
A few years back i was at my friends place... u know ... chillin out. Her mother liked me ( mothers usually do ;) ) until I opened my big mouth and discouraged her daughter from doing homework saying that she should party instead. I was obviously partially kidding but as a result of that conversation Kata has exed me off her "acceptable friend for her daughter" list. One day she told Karen that "If Sara married Dan ( a good friend of mine) It would never work...all they would do for the rest of their lives is fight over who will flip the burgers that week". HAHAHA..... WELL KATA.... look who is nto in school ...not sure whats happening next year and has an interview at Burger King!....Oh how funny!

p.s. I would NEVER marry Dan. :)